:: The people that claimed themselves as brothers ::

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Malam tu, abang iman datang dengan muka yang lesu ditambah pula dengan mata yang cukup mengantuk..

Abang iman: nah mal, barang-barang yang kau nak..air kotak, maggi, biskut oreo..semua ade kat dalam bonet..maaf lah abang ngantuk sangat ni....baru balik kelas...

sambil matanya menoleh ke jam tangannya..jam menunjukkan pukul 11 malam...abang terpaksa drive all the way from Petaling jaya to Banting...walaupun badannya letih, dia tetap buat 'kerja' dia..

Abang iman: Duit kau cukup tak?

Aku: ade lah sikit bang...cukup jer rasanya...

Tanpa banyak bicara, abang keluarkan 2 keping note 50 ringgit dari wallet dia dan pantas menghulurkan kepadaku..

Abang iman: nah, ambil ni buat belanja...jimat-jimat sikit, jangan asyik nak top up jer..

Aku: terima kasih bang...

Abang iman: kau apsal lambat sangat turun, abang dah tertidur tunggu kau kat depan surau ni tadi...

Aku: oh, amal takde jam bang...jam amal rosak minggu lepas...

......Abang iman tanpa banyak bicara, lantas di buka ikatan jam tangan kulit di tangannya dan berikan pada aku.

Abang Iman: nah ambil jam ni pakai...jaga elok-elok....mahal jam ni...nanti abang beli jam lain..

....Aku terdiam, tak banyak yang aku boleh katakan pada waktu itu...melainkan megucapkan terima kasih pada abang iman yang sanggup hantar semua barang-barang aku. walaupun di tengah-tengah malam buta tu...

BUKAN ITU SAHAJA YANG AKU INGAT...

aku masih ingat lagi,,abang iman sanggup panggil kawan baik dia yang ada adik belajar medic tuk bagi insight kat aku ttg medicine 101 before aku masuk kmb dulu..

aku ingat jugak yang abang iman yang belikan laptop aku dan dia jugak yang hantar repair bila laptop aku rosak..

aku ingat jugak yang abang iman yang selalu tanya aku tentang study aku, social life aku dan sakit pening aku...even waktu tu aku bukan kecik lagi,,,dah besar pun..tapi abang iman tak pernah berhenti buat semua benda tu sampailah dia rasa yang aku dah cukup matang tuk lead life aku sendiri....lepas tu,, dia slow-slow sikit buat benda-benda ni...

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aku dulu cam tak paham sangat...kenapa seorang abang sanggup endure semua benda ni tuk adik dia sampailah satu masa kau lahir zim...17 tahun dulu kau tetiba jer muncul kat dalam life aku....kaulah orang pertama yang merampas semua mainan aku dan kau jugaklah orangnya yang merosakkannya semua...kaulah orang yang merampas privilege aku sebagai anak bongsu,anak kesayangan dan anak manja...masa kau lahir,,aku hilang kesemuanya dalam sekelip mata....dan kau dapat segala kemewahan dan keseronokan jadi anak bongsu tu sampailah sekarang...

haish,,,aku pun tak tahu either am i ever being a good brother to you or not...cos benda ni bukannya satu benda yang diajar dengan proper..cam kau masuk kolej pastu ambik Ijazah Kursus KeABANGan dan ke TANGGUNGJAWABan....memang takde derr...aku just buat jer what i have to do tuk pastikan kau dapat apa yang kau nak...dan didik kau jadi orang yang berguna...

I use to ask myself one question...Am I treating you as good as abang Iman took care of me?..Until now, i can't answer that....I think abang iman have showed the best example of being a so called 'abang' and fulfilling the so called destined 'responsibility'...he did his job pretty well...but as for me...I still didn't know how to...

But, to be honest with you...I'm still trying...trying to be the best 'abang' for you....so that, you'll grow up and become a good person...person that I'll finally be proud of...yeah, that's you...you're one of the reason why i'm still alive...cos, my job to watch over you haven't finished just about yet...

ok, ok,ok...enough with all these bromance stuff...we're all grown ups already...and this year you'll have to face your SPM...yeah, your SPM...and if you ever asked me whether I'm worried about you or not...I would say that I'm not really like that worried anymore....cos, I think that you're ready to do this...You're ready to show me that I'm not a crappy kind of brother anymore...You'll get a good grade and you'll show it to me one day with a satisfaction smile carved on your face....

Azim, in the next few years..you and I will have our own family to be taken care of...one day we'll finally become adults...we'll take over the responsibility to take care care of our family..jaga mak dan abah..and as for me, my responsibility would certainly grows larger..One day I have to love my wife, love my kids, love my job...

But, I just wanna let you know that as a brother I would always love u... Even though, in the next 20 years , you'll turn 37 and I will become an old man of 43....deep down my heart, I'm still your brother...and my love and care towards you would remains the same as the moent you were born in this world....

Good luck and take care...

Prepare yourself for the upcoming SPM battle...

I'm not worried,,,cos I've learned to BELIEVE...

BELIEVE on your ability...

You can do this...
and by the way...
Happy 17th Birthday zim..
is always be a pleasure for me to be your brother..

Abang Amal

(your very own brother in a distant land of shamrock)